Prayer

I think that in life it's all we have sometimes. One Sunday morning our preacher did his sermon and told about how we pray when we are in a jam, pray when we really need something, pray when you want something to go your way, etc. Do you ever truly pray when it's just the right thing to do ?

I have said that for the last year through this struggle that I pray as soon as my feet hit the floor. I have to or I won't make it through the day. I have to pray for Thomas and my other children. I pray for myself and for my own freewill shall we say. I pray for the others around me. I have to pray many times during the day. I often just have to stop and take in a deep breath and call God's name, he knows what I'm doing and then go on. I also pray just before I go to bed. Now I'm not talking about drop to your knees like when I was a kid and kneel beside the bed. I'm talking about taking moments to myself when I can with God.

Recently on Facebook I've been asking for prayer for Thomas. I notice that not so many people respond to that. I'm wondering why that is? Let me go on though about Thomas. We are on his 4th medicine for tantrums, a mood stabilizer that can (a very very low %) have some side effects. He is also on something to help him sleep. I'm feeling anxious and nervous myself, praying and praying that I haven't given him something that is going to harm him in any way. I'm praying that this will help him. I'm praying that none of those terrible things she told me about will happen because....... I'm not sure I could live with myself. I then have to remember that I'm just doing the best that I can and the best that I know for my son as the present time. I'm doing what a Dr, with more education in this area than myself has advised me to do.

So for today I'm praying!