Super Mom....Not Quite

So being Super Mom is definitely something to live for and live up to! We all want to wear that cape with the SM stamped on it. Our kids look up to us as Super Moms and at times we even feel as though we are. Perhaps at times not quite.... Being the mother of three and raising a set of twins at that has definitely gotten me the title of super mom at times. People will say "how do you do that?" or "I couldn't do two at one time..." The list goes on and I'm sure some of you can relate. I learned today that one of my biggest fears is coming real and it scares me to death. Being sick is interfering with being super mom. MS is taking away from so much in my life. One thing that it truly affects is my memory. I often have a hard time naming things, people, places or just recalling events. Today I forgot my son's lunch. He's a second grader. The school called and I rushed right over with lunch for him and burst into tears in the cafeteria. The realization of what I had done just hit me. Yes, I know other parents have done this before and it doesn't mean I'm a bad mother. However, I've been worried about a lot of things. What if I forget other things? Could I potentially one day forget my kids names, my own name, how to do every day tasks?

I had to take a break while writing this. I don't even know now where my train of thought was going with the above except to say that I'm not perfect, not a perfect mom and I'm quite scared. The phone rang and on the other end was the lady from the local MS group. It's never been so good to talk to someone. She sounds JUST like me. So many things in common. She is much older than I am, but yet just about every aspect of her life is the same as mine. She knows exactly how I feel and what I go through every day. She is sending me information and I just may be able to go to the meeting next week. It feels amazing to have someone else just know. I can't wait to meet other people too who are right there with me. No matter where this journey takes me, I know it will be amazing!