Could it be that all of this is just getting to me? Maybe it's the fact that my husband is in the middle of accredidations at the Police Department and he's worked every night for the last month or maybe it's the new found news in my life or the holidays or...... I'm not sure what it is. I just feel like today I lost my mind. Maybe it's actually there it just got the better of me today. I got really angry at my children earlier because they dumped out all of their toys and all of the books. I'm not talking just a few small things either, it's an entire playroom full of large things and many many baskets full and small toys and I had just cleaned the entire room this morning. Perhaps it is because I'm so tired, or hurt so badly today that I thought I would pull my own hair out. Either way, I just blew up. Has anyone else ever done that? Yes this house is loud all the time and we are a "yelling" house. We always yell because to be heard here you pretty much have to do that. We are just LOUD! I just don't want this "disease" and I use the term loosely to overtake me so that I'm turning into something that I'm not. It bothers me and so do other things. Like the fact that I can't talk to anyone. My husband seems to think that it's funny and I have no one else to talk to about how I feel. How this is making me feel is so many things and there is no one to share it with.
Oh I'm rambling now and the kids are gradually getting louder...... what time is it? Oh lookie there.... bedtime! My favorite time of day! Well until the next time and like I said it's LOUD in here!
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